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Old Writings

I am going through old blog posts and writings today and came across this piece I wrote one year after 9/11. Thought I would reshare. Enjoy!

September 11, 2002
One Year Later

Today marks one full year. One year since thousands of innocent lives were lost, and the world as we knew it changed forever.

New York City has long been the subject of stereotypes—loud, impatient, fast-paced, unapologetically bold. We’re known for our yellow taxis, crowded streets, unforgettable accents, dirty subways, and towering skyline. But there’s so much more beneath the surface.

I grew up in New York. My childhood was a blur of concrete playgrounds and street games—red rover, lemonade stands, big wheels, and cardboard breakdance mats. I never envied the swing sets or grassy backyards across the river in New Jersey. This city was my playground.

One of my clearest memories is riding the subway into Manhattan. As the train glided over the bridge, the skyline would appear—and every time, it took my breath away. The Twin Towers stood above it all, unmistakable, iconic, untouchable.

I remember the first time I saw them up close. I was so small I had to grip my father’s arm just to tilt my head back far enough to take them in. They were giants—silent, silver giants—with a pulse of their own. People streamed in and out constantly, on their way to work, to lunch, to meetings. Life buzzing all around them, never imagining the unthinkable: that one day, those towers would fall.

Over the years, I grew up with them. Eventually, I worked in the North Tower myself. But even then, walking towards them every morning, that sense of awe never faded. I still felt small beside them, still had to steady myself when I looked up. They weren’t just buildings. They were part of my life—like two silent siblings who had always been there.

They were part of every New Yorker’s life.

And then, one year ago today, they were gone. Two structures that took years to build collapsed in under 60 seconds, taking with them thousands of lives. The very people I used to watch as a child—rushing in and out like New Yorkers do—vanished in an instant.

In just one minute, the skyline was changed. In one minute, hearts broke. In one minute, everything shifted.

Even with a year behind us, the pain feels fresh. I woke up today feeling the same shock, sadness, and anger I felt that morning. Every time I return to the city and see the hole in the skyline, my heart sinks. Every time I hear a victim’s story, my chest tightens.

I feel sorrow. I feel rage. I feel fear. My heart aches for the families still grieving—parents, siblings, children, spouses. So many of the victims were just starting out.

Laura Angiletta, 23, fresh out of college at her new job at Cantor Fitzgerald. Paul Battaglia, 22, working at Marsh & McLennan. Jude Safi, 25, also at Cantor. Robert Tipaldi, 25, same firm. They walked the same streets I did. They chased the same dreams. They felt the same awe, walking toward those towers each day.

Today feels hollow without them. New York feels hollow without the towers. I will carry their memory, and the memory of those towers, and the memory of who we were before September 11, 2001.

I’m proud of where I come from. Proud of our grit, our chaos, our subway grime and short tempers. Proud of the resilience, the way we came together, the way we honored the fallen. No matter where life takes me, I’ll always be a New Yorker at heart.

There is no better place in the world to come from.

What My Childhood Didn’t Teach Me- And How I Learned Anyway

I’ve spent many years in recovery—recovering from drug abuse, childhood trauma, anger issues, defensive rage, adulthood trauma, and more. I invested over 20 years in therapy and anger management classes. And while, at times, I may feel like one the most zen people, it still only takes a split second for those old patterns to resurface—the very ones I’ve fought so hard to overcome.

My childhood was marked by violence and chaos. Not a day went by without screaming, fighting, things being thrown, or physical abuse—and that was just inside my home. Outside, I faced the harsh reality of life in New York City, where chaos and danger were constant companions. By the time I was 15, I had attended over 100 funerals—friends lost to accidents, shootings, suicide, and murder. It’s no surprise that I spent most of my formative years on high alert.

As I grew older, I found myself repeating the same toxic patterns I had witnessed growing up. Physical abuse became familiar, emotional abuse was expected, and I came to see it all as normal. The toll it took on me was heavy—chronic anxiety, sleepless nights, and a constant sense of unease followed me everywhere. I never truly felt safe.

As a child, I would escape in my mind to California. To me, it symbolized everything I longed for—peace, possibility, and a fresh start. It was nearly 3,000 miles from New York City, my family, and the chaos that surrounded my life. That dream became my fuel. I was just a kid from a broken home in Brooklyn, a high school dropout with nothing but raw survival instincts and a burning desire to get out.

The funny thing about trying to escape the patterns of your past is that the harder you fight them, the easier it is to fall right back into them—often without even realizing it. No matter how much work I’ve done—years of therapy, meditation, deep self-reflection—certain triggers still have a power over me that feels impossible to control.

If someone threatens me physically, my instinct is immediate and overwhelming: FIGHT. And not just defend—I go into full-blown survival mode. I see red. I lose control. I’ll scream, throw things, lash out with a rage so blinding it feels like I’m watching myself from the outside, completely detached but unable to stop it. It’s terrifying. It’s humiliating. And despite all the progress I’ve made in nearly 50 years, this one reaction continues to haunt me.

I’m not proud of it—far from it. I’ve spent decades trying to unlearn this response. But in those moments, it doesn’t feel like a choice. That whole “if you come at me, be ready for the storm” mentality has only ever left me depleted—emotionally wrecked, physically sick for days, and sleepless for weeks. It’s a cycle I desperately want to break, but some scars run deep.

That’s not to say I lose control often—because I don’t. Most of the time, I can take a deep breath, recognize what’s happening, and remove myself from the situation before it escalates. Verbal disagreements? I can handle those. But the second someone raises a hand to me or even hints at physical harm, it’s like a switch flips. I see red.

Part of me believes, in certain situations, that reaction might actually protect me. That “Hulk smash” instinct might serve a purpose when real danger is present. If someone sees that I’m willing to go to a level they’re not prepared for, they usually back off. But what happens when they don’t?

Now, at the age of 50, the last thing I want is chaos, drama, violence, or conflict. I crave peace. I want to be surrounded by people who love me, who protect me—not just physically, but emotionally. People who safeguard my heart, my sanity, and my spirit. People who lift me up rather than tear me down.

I want to make better choices than the ones my mother made. I want to be stronger than I once was. And I want to be fearless in walking away from anyone who proves they are not safe for me—no matter who they are. I’m done trying to earn love, approval, or acceptance. I’m not here to please anyone anymore.

I just want peace.

Emotional regulation is a life skill I was never taught as a child. My examples were far from ideal. Yes, I had strong women around me, but I also witnessed things no child ever should. Those memories don’t just fade—they linger. And even now, recognizing when something is wrong doesn’t always mean I feel capable of changing it.

Much of this, I’ve learned, is just part of the hard lessons life hands us. Still, I can’t help but wish I had understood some of these truths sooner. If I could sit down with my younger self, this is what I’d tell her:


“Gloria, you are worth so much more than this. You can’t change people. You can’t control anything but YOU—and you especially can’t control anyone else. What you can control is your attitude, your perspective, and how you respond to the world around you.

Life will be so much easier if you learn this at 20 instead of 50. Don’t waste your time trying to fix or save people. Accept them for who they are. If someone brings you peace, protects your energy, and helps you grow—keep them close. But if they show you who they are, believe them, and walk away. Immediately. No second chances.

Also, don’t smoke. Don’t drink too much. Start working out in your twenties and stick with it—it’ll save you mentally as much as physically. And for the love of God, save your money. Stop giving it away to everyone who asks. You’re going to need it, kid.”

With Love, G


As I write this—sitting in the beautiful dining room of my home in California—I feel deeply grateful. But I’ve learned that gratitude and self-reflection aren’t the same. They’re both hard-won, often born out of seasons when gratitude feels out of reach and self-reflection feels too painful to face.

What I know now is this: never give up. Life is far too short. Always look inward. Always commit to your growth. And remember—protecting your peace isn’t selfish or harsh. It’s essential. You cannot clearly care for others, pursue your dreams, or navigate life with intention unless you first learn to love yourself.

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PRIDE NYC

Today is my favorite day of the year in NYC. It’s Pride Parade day!

To all of my fellow gay, bi, and lesbians – go loud, proud and awesome!

Off to celebrate!

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Tick, Tock…

Today is a special day for me. On June 4th, 1993, I met my best friend in Greenwich Village, NYC. We met outside of a McDonalds on Broadway. He was with some of his friends, and I was with one of mine. We were 17 years old, and full of life and personality. I was wearing a Pearl Jam T-Shirt and he abused me for it.  Needless to say, it wasn’t the best of meetings to start off with, but a few weeks later we met again at the Limelight. We hooked up in the house of cards at the back of the club (anyone remember that?!) and quickly fell madly in love.

We moved in together a few months later, and dated for almost 3 years until we broke up because I was a cheating asshole, and he deserved better. It took about 6 months for us to get to a place where we could be friends without drama or pain, but once that happened we never looked back. Today is 19 years since we met, and I cannot imagine my life without him in it and am grateful for every day we get together. I have a lot of close friends, but he is my rock. I tell him EVERYTHING. He gives the best advice, and we have always been there for each other. I’ve told every boyfriend all about him, and said “if you cannot handle that he and I used to date, then this won’t work. My bestie is #1 in my life. He will always be. Get over your insecurity and handle it, or we’re done.” I am happy to report that all of my ex’s, except for 1, was not only cool with him, but also very tight with him. I choose to surround myself with confident, awesome people, so this is not surprising. 🙂

To date, no matter what has gone on in either of our lives, we have always been there for each other. When I was doing heroin, and 6 months after I quit had a small slip, he was there. No questions asked. When he was having issues in his life, I’d drop anything to be by his side. He is my brother, and I love him with every piece of me.

About 7 years ago, he got hitched and moved to Los Angeles. Admittedly, I was very sad when he left. Living in Southern California was a dream we always shared. We always promised each other that we’d move there one day. He went before me, and while I was happy, selfishly I was jealous and upset that he was leaving NYC without me. I was sill happy for him, though. He lived in LA for a year before he decided it sucked and then high-tailed it to San Diego, where he still resides today. He’ll never come back to NYC, and I don’t blame him. Although we’ve been apart for so long, we still spend hours on the phone every night and we still have a very solid friendship.

I’m finally getting the fuck out of here this year (hopefully), and I am excited for a million reasons, but Lenin is definitely one of the biggest. Granted, I’ll be in LA, and he lives in SD, but at least I can drive to him in 2 hours. VERY EXCITING!

So, 19 years ago I was blessed with meeting the other half of my soul. My bestie is the most amazing person I’ve ever known, therefore, this day is one of my favorite days of the year!

Happy anniversary, Lenin. Thank you for existing, and making my life more colorful, and awesome with every passing day. I love you!!!

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Focus, or Lack Thereof…

I have been having an unusual amount of trouble focusing as of late. This has been a growing phenomenon with me over the last 8 months or so. Focus was always my strong suit, especially when it came to work. My strong work ethic, combined with my need to succeed, often propelled me to great heights in my 20 year career. I feel like I still have a large amount of interest in what I do, as well as a need for success, but I just can’t seem to lock myself down and concentrate. My mind is all over the place, and I don’t know if that stems from unhappiness, or just masked disinterest. I’ve been trying to figure it out, but try as I might, I see no answers.

I rarely allow myself to get lost in daydreams, or become so unfocused on myself that I begin to let everything in my life start to fade. I find myself in this strange stage of my life, and everything about me is changing. I’m not sure if it’s for the best, or the opposite, to be honest.

For example, when I’m sitting in a meeting, that is very important and involves potential clients, I find myself drifting. I have to consciously force myself to sit up straight, listen to what people are saying and contribute with useful information. I almost feel like I have A.D.D. I have endured my share of ups and downs, whirlwind romances, breakups, career highs and lows, but this is simply mind boggling. In fact, I cannot remember a time in my life that I was this distracted! It’s scary!

Could it be a medical problem? Am I simply so I dissatisfied with my life that I am losing interest in everything around me? Have I reached a breaking point? Is it the fact that I am turning 37 in July? I wish I knew this answer because this is frustrating. While there are outside factors that have notably contributed to my lack of concentration, I cannot blame it all on those. I’ve been down this road and never lost myself in the process. I always worried about me, my life, my interests, my health. Well, besides my stint with heroin in my 20’s, but even that didn’t last more than a year, and I was able to pull myself out of the deepest abyss I’ve ever seen!

On top of that, I constantly feel like I’m being monitored and need to watch everything I say and do because of it. It’s frustrating for a person like me, because I am so forthcoming, honest and open. I have had to “put a lid on it” for almost 6 months now, in fears that anything I say can be misconstrued. Gah! There are some days that I get so angry about it that I literally want to choke someone. Do you know what it’s like to be a blog writer, who has been writing online for years, writes columns based on her life, blogs that have hundreds of thousands of followers and fans, yet have to censor yourself because 1 person is mentally off? It’s ridiculous. I know I shouldn’t care, and just live my life, but how do you do that? It’s almost selfish behavior, and I don’t want to cause any more waves then I have to, although I’m currently not doing ANYTHING WRONG!

In life there are positives and negatives, good and bad. In my life right now, I am dealing with lack of focus and motivation, and the one thing that always helps me sort out my feelings, I cannot do. That has me feeling angry, resentful, etc. I’ve learned to push it to the back burner as best as I can, and realize that some people just are who they are. I can only take solace in the fact that I have managed to surround myself with amazing, artistic, confident, and reasonable people. I guess that’s all that matters in the big picture. Right?

Anyway, I’m trying my absolute best to take the high road, center myself, focus on ME and what’s best for me and not worry about all of these outside bullshit factors that stress me out. It’s just not worth it. I’m forcing myself to do what I do best, and that’s make myself whole and happy. My home life is not in the best state it could be in, rightfully so. My work life is stressful, but I manage to separate that from my personal life, for the most part. My finances are not where they should be because I feel like I am financially supporting everyone, which is somewhat true, although my own fault. While I’ve lost a good amount of weight, and I am looking great, I am not feeling great. I am always tired, cranky, my weight fluctuates up and down like 15 lbs, which is not healthy. My diet changes often due to my stress factors on any given week. I need to have some consistency in my life. I need to create a workout schedule and stick to it, no matter how difficult. I need to set some financial boundaries with people, just because I have money it does not mean I should support everyone around me. I need set some social boundaries and let my friends know that I too have a life, and my life does not revolve around them and that fact that they all decided to have multiple children. I did not choose that life for a reason.

Ah, I don’t know. Things always manage to work themselves out in my life, but I feel like I’m getting to the point where I need to take more of a stand, and I will, it just takes time.

So, gone are the days where I waste my time worrying about everyone else. I need to focus on me and what’s best for my life. For real. Fuck everyone else for once.

Now if only I could stick to that, I’d be golden! 🙂

Happy Memorial Day weekend, all! Enjoy your BBQ’s, beach time and fun.

XO

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A New Day, A New Outlook

Just coming off of a high from my trip last week, and spent my entire day yesterday unpacking, cleaning and pulling a million pieces of a disintegrated contact lens out of my eye (ouch!) While I was staring in the mirror trying not to lose my shit because my eyeball was on fire, I realized something…

I’M NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO!

WTF am I doing? Life is too short to live unhappily, and to live somewhere you hate, and to not be around the people you love, adore and make you so fucking happy that it should be illegal! Yes, I am making moves to get the fuck out of this hellhole I call a hometown, but I’m not doing it fast enough. I look around my apartment and all I see is shit I do not need. I have a walk-in closet so filled with clothes and shoes that it is literally overflowing and spilling out onto the floor in my bedroom. My dresser is so packed with shit, that the drawers don’t even close any more, I have bookshelves filled with books I’ve already read and have no use for, I have a bathroom filled with make-up, hair products, skin products, curling irons, hair dryers, hair coloring tools, brushes, nail polish, soaps, etc, etc. A garage filled with more clothes and shoes and furniture and work out equipment I do not use because I belong to a gym that I pay an ungodly amount of money for every month! GAH!

All of this shit is weighing me down, man. I need to TRASH IT ALL, pack a suitcase or two, get in my fucking car and just GO. We work to pay bills, and buy ourselves a bunch of meaningless shit, and spend most of our days not smiling due to stress from work, life, bills, debt, bullshit. What is the point? I think I am having an existential crisis.

True happiness is so fucking fleeting, and when you find it, in any form you need to hang onto it, fight for it, chase it and do everything you can to just be happy! Life is short. Before I know it, I will be too old, or dead, or sick, or whatever. It’s like skating. I strap on skates and I am the happiest person in the world. I’m burning massive amounts of calories, making my legs and muscles stronger, which releases endorphins, which makes us happy, which makes us healthy. Yet, I injure myself and I can’t skate so I just don’t. Really? I’m not a quitter, so again WTF am I doing? I decided this weekend that I need to find something new to occupy my time, a few new things, actually.

Rather than skating, I will run. A lot.

I am going to take up boxing. Yes, boxing. A great way to release my anger, frustration and stress. What is better than punching someone in the face? C’mon!

I’m starting burlesque and fire-eating training in June. Fuck it.

I’m taking a stand up comedy class, because I know I can rock that shit.

I am getting rid of all of this material bullshit, and donating it to charity. Let someone else enjoy my 700 pairs of heels. I don’t need so fucking MANY, although they are quite gorgeous.

I am going to workout until my body collapses from sheer exhaustion, and make this little body of mine so tight, and so muscular that you couldn’t knock me down if you tried.

In short, I do not have time for wallowing, depression, playing woe is me because I’m not currently in an ideal situation. I will get what I want, I will be happier, I will live where I want to be… you know why?

BECAUSE I’M NOT A FUCKING QUITTER.

That’s why…

And that’s all I have to say about that!

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Seasons Change, So Do I…

With every season, I invent a new me. Winter time leaves me feeling morose and defeated as I hate the cold and snow. I often find myself very “goth” during those months, and will dye my locks jet black, sport alabaster skin, wear a lot of black, grey and red clothing, black eye makeup. I enjoy the “darker” me, and always feel somewhat sexy, exotic and unstoppable with my raven locks. I also pack on about 10-15 lbs during these months. I guess it’s to give my scrawny ass some insulation, if you will. It’s fucking COLD in NYC.

With spring, I find myself dying my hair a few shades lighter. Usually a med-dark ash brown. I will start wearing lighter shades of clothing, and often find myself filled with hope as the summer is on it’s way! I will start dropping the added lbs around April.

The summer me is completely different from the winter me. I will dye my hair platinum blonde, cut it a bit, wear bright and vivid colors, get myself a tan (I live on the beach) and I just have a different attitude towards life in general.

In the fall, I will go back to red hair, wear earthy colored clothing, a lot of knee-high stiletto boots, wool skirts. Summer and fall are my favorite seasons in NYC, as it is just gorgeous outside and the city seems to come alive! I truly dislike this place, although I grew up here. I do look forward to May-November, however.

I am in mid-transition to my summer me. This morning I came into work and saw some co-workers from our California office that I have not seen in some time and they did not recognize me. This always cracks me up. It is a drastic change, so I understand and never take it personally. The last time I saw these people I had jet black hair almost to my waist, pale skin, weighed 20 lbs more than I do now. I now have shoulder length blonde hair, tanned skin, tighter, toned body. Change is GOOD. It makes you feel new, refreshed, excited, and hopeful. That and there is always something about going blonde that just changes my entire outlook. If you are a chick that can pull off any hair color, I highly suggest giving blonde a whirl. It is a good time!

OK, there is my shallow post of the year. Enjoy! xo

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A Song That Changed My Life

Three Days: This song literally helped me through my heroin withdrawals. Music is so damn powerful.

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Get Busy Living, or Get Busy Dying…

As humans, we tend to put things off. “I will start exercising next week,” or, “I will quit drinking tomorrow.” We’re famous for procrastination. We’re all just lost souls looking for a way to make ourselves feel whole again. Sometimes we find solace in drugs, alcohol, food, a failing relationship, a marriage, a lover, a great book, our children, home lives, jobs, a pad and pen… Anything to keep our minds off of what the real problem is: Ourselves.

No one wants to face their issues, it’s painful. Really looking at yourself in the mirror and seeing your physical, and emotional flaws hurts. Gathering the motivation to change yourself is difficult, at best. We all repeat the same cycles over and over – up and down, down and up, co-dependency, independence, insecurity, confidence… it’s all the same. What goes up, must come down.

What allows us to muster up the motivation to face our biggest fears and change that which brings us down? It’s a difficult question to answer, and sometimes it’s glaringly obvious, but most times we do not even see the abyss we’ve created for ourselves until it’s too late and something catastrophic must occur for us to “wake up.” Maybe a death, the fact that a long-term relationship is not what you thought it was, a job that makes you unhappy, a growing waistline that you didn’t really notice until you pull on a pair of jeans that you can’t zipper anymore, or simply just trying to force yourself out of bed in the morning. Any of these things, ranging from catastrophic to simplistic, can force you to open your eyes. In the long run, you almost have to be grateful for the opportunity to see the light, as some people never get that. I know people who are so unaware of themselves that it is terrifying to watch. They literally have no idea who they are, and how the world reacts to their presence. I can sit down and give you a detailed list of all of the things that are wrong with me, every single flaw I possess. It’s good to be aware of that, but it’s knowing how to fix them or improve on yourself that matters.

I personally go through ups and downs more often than I’d like to admit. I find myself sinking at times, and usually before I get too deep I can pull myself up and force myself into the light again. I am lucky in that respect. Where I am unlucky is my tendency to fall in the first place. There are a few things in this crazy life that can pull me down, and they are as follows:

  • Love – When I fall in love, which is rare for me, I tend to REALLY fall hard. While I am quite realistic, I also find myself becoming whimsical about a person, and idealizing them when I shouldn’t. I guess everyone does that at first, as it is quite difficult to avoid. The beginning of something is always the best part, and it’s easy to lose sight of reality. I work extra hard to keep my feet planted on the ground and think about the things that are “unsexy” about a person, rather than see them through rose colored glasses. I sometimes get caught up in the newness of things though, and I quickly realize that I am doing that and can most times correct myself before it’s too late.
  • Work – When I become frustrated with my job, I lose motivation. Once I lose that? My focus goes straight out the window. I need to be challenged at work, and when I am not, my interest wanes, quickly.
  • Myself – I am an extremist. I am either a neat freak or a total slob; a health nut, or killing myself; so active that it’s crazy, or laying on the couch for 3 days straight; a social butterfly, or isolating and keeping my phone on silent. Everyone who truly knows me, knows this about me and can usually decide whether or not they will let me wallow, or attempt to pull me out. Due to my insane social calendar and long list of amazing friends, most times, I am not “allowed” to wallow for too long. Plus, I truly love myself and I usually won’t allow myself to become “that person” who whines about their life, but does nothing to change it. Admittedly, there have been times when I allow that to go on a lot longer than it should, but the people around me will never know it. I rarely show my weaknesses because my ego is way too big to allow that. I’m a force, and I have a rep to protect. My ego keeps me from sinking too far, and for that, I am grateful. Otherwise I’d be 200 lbs, and miserable. I’ve never been more than 20 lbs overweight, due to this ego of mine. I feel I am way too hot and amazing to allow myself to slip that far. I understand how it happens to people though, I just don’t understand how they allow it to keep happening. There is a thing called “self-love, and self-respect,” after all.

There have been times that I have found myself in a relationship where I begin to change things about myself to accommodate my mate. I am smart enough to know that if I allow myself to continue down a path like that, the relationship will inevitably fail. No one wants to be with someone who is miserable, complains constantly, does nothing to change or fix themselves and then projects the blame for said misery on their mate. Ick. However, relationships are a give and take. You get back what you put into it, right? I am a strong believer in the fact that if you improve upon yourself, you improve upon your relationship. You know how in a plane, you are supposed to put the oxygen mask on you before helping anyone else? Same theory in life, and relationships. You cannot help anyone until you help yourself.

If you’re sitting at home and obsessing over things you cannot control, like what your mate is doing when he/she is out of sight, or what is going on with your friends, or your job when you’re not around – you’ll only drive yourself crazy. A lot of this comes from a strong sense of self, confidence, knowing who you are and what you bring to the table. People will inevitably hurt you, you cannot change that fact. No way. This is a simple fact that most humans lose sight of, and I find that to be very sad.

I’m writing this because it’s Sunday afternoon, on a gorgeous day. I had a lot of plans today, which have been pushed aside due to me hurting my knee again yesterday and landing in the ER for most of my day. Whenever these things happen to me (which is often due to my lifestyle), I get depressed. I cannot sit around for too long without sinking, it is just my extremist personality, I guess. Once I start to sink, I either curl up on the couch and watch TV, or I write. I chose to write, which is much better than the Demerol and red wine coma I could be in.

I feel that I am finally getting to a place of happiness in my life, like true happiness. I just accepted an amazing job in Los Angeles for a global firm that comes along with a HUGE paycheck, a corner office, an executive title, full travel schedule and the potential of a 6-bedroom 5000 sq ft house. I’ve arrived, career-wise, and it’s about time. I’m also happy because I’ll finally be living where I want to be, and have wanted to be since I am 7 years old and that is Southern California where my best friend, brother, and 10,000 other close friends moved over the years. Again, with the ups comes the downs, and while I am preparing myself for the “other shoe to drop” I am still hopeful for my future, which is a nice change.

Sometimes you just have to cut your losses, get up, brush yourself off and make a positive change. All of these things come from focusing on yourself, and not obsessing on others while you lose yourself.

So, get busy living, or get busy dying. It’s simple.

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Life is Like a Box of Chocolates…

Or something special like that.

This was a GOOD weekend. One that I will look back on and smile. Raise your glass to my cousin Adam, who lived life to the fullest, died young, and left a gorgeous corpse. I’ve seen my fair share of gorgeous corpses, there is no doubt about that. It sucks every time, but such is life. Things will always work out the way they are meant to be.

I’m happy because I am in love with life, my opportunities, my blessings, my connections, my friends, my family – you name it. I am just happy. I have been afforded many amazing opportunities in my life, one can even go as far as to say that I have been spoiled with them. I’m adorable, well-off, smart, funny, creative, talented, lovable, full of myself. 🙂

The events that have unfolded over the last week have made me grateful. Grateful for who I am, what I have, where I have been and what I have accomplished.

So, I will end this with one simple question: Are you living happily, or just living?

It’s an important question, to which I recently learned the answer to.

Happy Sunday!

 

A Steelers fan, but I loved him nonetheless. 🙂

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