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MC: Day 5
Down 10 lbs in total. Feeling pretty good, for the most part. I notice that I have NO desire to drink alcohol, which is great. I am chock full of crackhead energy, and can literally run a marathon right now.
I have an action packed weekend ahead of me, and 2 parties to attend. This will be interesting. Delicious home cooked Italian food (my fave, of course), vino, sweets, etc. I plan on staying strong, I am sure I will be fine.
Wish me luck! xo
Today’s Headlines…
Is this really a problem?
Who am I?
I have a page on this site that is almost 5 years old called “Who am I?” I need to update it. We change so much as the years go on. I was reading it on the train this morning and laughing to myself. I’m so cocky sometimes. I make myself out to be so much bitchier than I actually am.
While my core beliefs are still the same, I am not nearly as harsh as I used to be. I am starting to learn about empathy a bit, JUST a bit…
I will probably update that sometime today. Stay tuned…
MC: Day 4
It’s Day 4, and I’m down a total of 8 lbs. I’m feeling better every day. I do find, however, that my hunger and food cravings are hitting me at night. This is a first. I’ve been dealing with it by drinking hot herbal laxative tea, which basically tricks your stomach into thinking its soup. Ha!
I’m still going strong, though. 8 more days to go. I think I’ll end up dropping closer to 20 this time around. That will be too much. I don’t need to drop that much, I’ll look like a little boy! If i find myself dropping too much, i’ll stop. We’ll see.
MC: Day 3
Day 3, and I’m down 6.5 lbs! My body and metabolism is amazing, and I’m grateful and lucky that it still kicks this much ass at 36 years old.
I haven’t been doing the SWF, no time in the morning, as I get up at 4 am for work. In lieu of the SWF, I’ve been drinking an herbal laxative tea in the morning, and at night. It is very important that you do something to flush the toxins out, otherwise fasting like this is pointless.
Last night was difficult. I was going through cravings for all kinds of crap. I was standing outside of the Stillwell train station in Coney Island and smelling McD’s, Nathan’s, corn dogs, pizza. I almost never eat any of that shit, in fact, can’t remember the last time I sunk my teeth into a Big Mac. On days 1-4 of the MC, you will crave the most disgusting food! That’s your body going through the detoxification process, and while it sucks, if your willpower is strong enough, you’ll power through and by day 5, you’ll be happy you did.
I know a lot of people who have tried this. Some have failed after the first, or second day because they convince themselves that “it’s not healthy,” or, “it’s too extreme.” It’s neither, that is just your addiction to eating talking. Chances are, if you’re overweight, you emotionally eat. When you remove food from your life, even for 10-17 days, you have an emotional hole that needs to be filled. For me, the MC is almost a spiritual experience. Depriving myself of food, and alcohol shows me that I am strong, but it also makes me more self-aware than I am.
The fact is, I’ve been miserable for a long time. Food, alcohol, social life, work… Anything to distract me from myself. I do this fast often, and it’s to keep me emotionally grounded, and keep myself in check before I sink into a depression that makes me fat, and completely unaware of what I’m doing to those around me.
I digress…
On day 3, your tongue starts to turn colors. It’s nothing short of terrifying. Right now? It’s a yellow purplish color. Gross. You can spend 45 minutes brushing the shit out if it, and it does nothing! When your tongue turns back to pink, that is how you know you should stop the fast. The longest I’ve gone was 17 days, but after day 4? Not eating is cake! After a while you don’t even want food because you feel so amazing.
Anyway, day 3, 6.5 lbs down, cravings subsiding a bit, tongue yellow/purple, and the insane motivation to keep going!
Happy Thursday. 🙂
MC: Day 2
I’m on day 2 of my 4th Master Cleanse, and feeling like a million bucks. I started with a co-worker and I think she’s quitting already. I hope she doesn’t, though.
This fast takes a lot of willpower and self-discipline. It’s really tough, but once you get over the hump, it’s worth it. If you try it, don’t quit! The first 4 days are the hardest because your body is shedding all of its toxins! It’s supposed to be difficult. Anything worth something in life is difficult. If you can’t make it through a fast, what can you make it through?
Push yourself! It’s rewarding.
I started yesterday at 126. This morning I am already 122. Most of that is water weight, but I’m feeling good. I’m focused, my eyes and skin are clear and glowing, and I have a lot of energy. After work tonight I plan on running!
I have 11 days until I leave for Austin, gotta build up those leg muscles and work on this knee. Strong legs and knees are very important for skate control! Austin was the first league of the derby revival, so I’m pretty amped!
So, here’s to Day 2! Only 10 more to go! Easy, peasy.
Master Cleanse: Round 4
I’m just starting my 4th MC, and I’m looking forward to it. I’ve got to drop about 10 lbs to reach my goal weight of 115. In 2 weeks I’m headed to Austin, TX to skate with the lovely Texas girls, so I need to whip myself into jammer shape once more, kids!
I’m starting tomorrow morning at 126, which is thin for my frame, but 115 is better. 🙂 I’ll keep a daily record for y’all.
In other news, I’ve chopped all of my long locks off! I cut off a total of 10″ and went BLONDE!
It’s a whole new me. Well, the old me was pretty spectacular, but change is fun.
New job, new look, tight bod…. Go me.
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