Once again, I find myself fortunate enough to have survived another fun-filled and action-packed year on this lovely planet. Sticking to my yearly tradition of posting all of my accomplishments and disappointments for the world to see, here is my list for 2007. . .
Things I have done
1. I took a very brave step forward and made a serious decision to become some kind of Doctor. This decision has changed my life in SO many ways. I have seriously mellowed out (party wise) and buckled down on my studies. I have managed to work 1 full time job, go to school both online and in an actual college here in NYC and volunteer with some local hospitals. I am happy to report that I am maintaining a 4.0 GPA and happier than I have ever been. Yay!
2. I decided that being 20 lbs overweight was so detrimental to my health and personality, that I finally got off of my depressed ass (after 5 years) and started to do something about it! I joined Weight Watchers and have learned all about eating right. My new motto is “Eat to LIVE, not LIVE to eat.” To date, I have dropped a whopping 13 lbs on this diet and I have 7-10 more to go! I am happier, more energetic, my personality is back (meaning I am no longer the raging, depressed, overly critical BITCH I once was.
3. I have become obsessive-compulsively neat. This is very new for me, as I have always been a total slob. I realized that an organized, clean environment not only does wonders for my allergies, but really aids in time management and life organization, in general. Now, the trick will be to clue Craig in on this, without screaming at him.
4. Craig & I had a fantastic wedding and took an equally fantastic honeymoon for 15 days! We also got to vacation in Ft lauderdale last month which afforded us the opportunity to see my wonderful grandparents for Thanksgiving.
5. I reunited with the “Delgado” clan and realized that there are a lot of amazing people running around with the same last name as me.
6. I patched things up with a few old friends, namely Amanda (well that was not really a “patch up,” just more of a reunite), Begum and Honey. I have realized that with age, people change, myself included. Good friends, with big hearts mean a lot to me.
7. Mine & Craig’s relationship has certainly grown stronger this past year. While we differ on a lot of things (who doesn’t), at the end of the day I could not think of a better person to fall asleep with at night.
8. I’ve had many moments at work, both good and bad, but overall I had a kickass year, and have been a big part in improving my departments reputation around the firm. That makes me proud.
9. My gorgeous, sweet and awesome nephew, Aiden Chase, entered the world and I was there to witness the birth. That experience changed me in such a HUGE way, that I could never do it justice with words – so I will not even try. My goal for next year? Spend some more time with him and Gina.
10. I survived a serious cancer scare. It shocked the shit out of me and clued me in on how horribly I was treating myself.
Disappointments
1. My father. He fell into an abyss and pretty much ruined his life this year. It sucked. I stopped speaking to him because the stress of it was just too much for me. It may seem a bit selfish to those of you who do not know the whole story, but it was something I needed to do. I love him, if I didnt, this would not be under “disappointments,” but I need to set boundries in my life. This is VERY important to survival and leading a healthy life.
2. My friends. I lost a few friends this year. While I am not disappointed at losing them, per say, I am disappointed about the situation. I did learn something from each break, which is certainly a positive thing, but it still hurt.
3. Fil. A friend of mine, who I really loved, died this year. He was way too young and way too full of life. I miss him.
4. Derby. I did not give this the honest shot I had wanted to. My schedule just would not allow it this year, although my depression and weight played a large part. I do plan on revisiting this next year, with my new found faith and confidence in myself.
5. I did not stick to my promise of staying in touch with the people I love. It is just so hard. I have been getting a bit better, but I should have started sooner. Life is too short and I should have learned this lesson in December of 2000 when one of my childhood best-friends, Veronica Diaz, passed away from cervical cancer. I live with the guilt of cutting her out of my life and having no clue that she passed away until I called her Mother’s house 6 months later and received the news. She did nothing wrong to me, I was just being selfish and stupid and recovering from drug addiction. She reached out to me and I just pushed her away.
6. Money. I did not get any better at managing it. I had planned to budget myself this year, pay off some bills and make the RIGHT choices for myself – just to prove that I could do it. Nope. I just over-spent and screwed things up even worse for myself. This is why I am afraid of money. As soon as its in my hands, it goes right back out.
7. My cousin. We had a falling out. I am a really blunt person and sometimes I say things that are considered mean. I know this and I feel bad about it, but that does not change the fact that I said it. I would say it again, if asked, because I believe in honesty. While I do love her (she was like a sister to me) I just can’t sacrifice my beliefs to make her happy. I can not sit there and lie to her to make her feel better. What kind of “sister” would I be? Que Sara-Sara… Sometimes the best route in life to take is what feels right, no matter the consequence.
8. The relationship between Craig’s band-mates and I. This suffered greatly this past year. It’s a struggle and here is where I should take the high-road and lay the blame where the blame is due – and that is with Craig and NOT with his band. His lead singer is so much like me, it’s insane. Because of this I blame him more than I should. He is actually a great person, with a big heart and I do love him, but I do not treat with respect. I am 100% wrong for that and I know it. However, it is not all my fault, due to details that I will not delve into at the moment. Being that he is just like me, he is just as pig-headed as I am, and 2 pig-headed, blunt, driven, motivated people do not make for a good relationship. It sucks, because his band is such a HUGE part of his life. He is so happy following his dreams and I admire him, all of them, for that. I just wish we could sit down for coffee and talk it out, but it will probably never happen. I just gotta deal and try to keep Craig smiling and out of conflict. That’s my job, and I don’t mind it.
So, in conclusion, I have had an amazing, life-enriching year. I have grown, changed, loved, laughed, cried, fought, danced, made new friends, skated, swam and ran the tires low. You can be nothing but grateful to be blessed like that.
Happy New Year, everyone! Much love to you all! 🙂
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